Today I went to Barnes and Noble. This was my first trip to a Barnes and Noble since October (the closest one is 25 miles away). In my former life, I would hunt down Barnes and Nobles whenever I got an unexpected break in my day. After becoming a mom, there was no greater joy than sitting in the cafe with a stack of books and magazines, knowing I could never possibly digest the goodies in front of me in the short amount of time I often discovered.
I am truly a kid in a candy shop at Barnes and Noble. A friend just posted this, and I can so relate.
I would take books over shoes any day.
But back to my books today, I was really called to explore some of the conversations coming up around motherhood. Maybe because I’m so enmeshed in it right now. Maybe it’s because I’m feeling extra pressure like I have to “get it right” since I started facilitating a parenting group, occasionally feeling like a fraud because I only get it right 30% of the time myself. Maybe it’s because I’m going through Mama Bliss Coaching school right now, and taking a course on Creating Magical Days with my children, but feel guilty for the need to escape them in order to create. I imagined myself writing and creating with children in tow, and now that they are here, I’m spending my time away from them looking for answers in the mindful-parenting book stacks of Barnes and Noble instead of in their presence.
I skimmed through all of the books on my table, but the one which spoke to me the most was Heather Shumaker’s It’s Okay Not to Share. It’s a revolutionary approach to parenting I became familiar with last year when my son was 2.5 years old and we had just moved to Ojai. I enrolled him in the toddler class at the Nan Tolbert Nurturing Center, just wanting to establish a routine and get out of the house for a few hours in the morning so my husband could work in peace, and my son would take a good afternoon nap. I never expected to learn anything in a parenting group, thinking I had it all together working with children 0 -3 years old for the past 10 years.
(The universe has a funny way of playing practical jokes on the people who need it most).
The lessons I’ve received are really big, as in life changing kinds of things not only to how I parent, but releasing the need to please others and control a situation. (HUGE for me!) *I need to put a caveat here – I still manage to get it wrong more times than I probably get it right, although my awareness is growing. I’m aware of what happens to my insides when my son has a meltdown over sharing. I’m more adept at holding big toddler emotions without getting sucked into them. I sit back and wait when the urge to fix arises allowing my son to come up with solutions.
Many of the issues with parenting come back to a feeling of being judged. Is that other mother waiting for my son to apologize? What do family members think of me as a parent when my son melts down and I don’t punish him? I am not only aware of his prickly emotions, but mine too. I notice my thoughts before going into an automatic reaction mode. This self awareness in regards to parenting has been eye opening and continues to be a work in progress as I continue to grow into motherhood with its ever-changing seasons.
I wanted to give you a sneak preview of the book I found most interesting: It’s Okay Not to Share and Other Renegade Rules for Raising Compassionate and Competent Kids. I loved the different chapters outlined as 29 lessons which truly spoke to my parenting questions.
1. Don’t steal play.
2. It’s okay if it’s not hurting people or property.
3. Kids need conflict.
4. All feelings are okay, but behavior isn’t.
5. Let kids hit and kick.
6. I hate you is nothing personal.
7. Take dictation from your tot.
8. Go ahead and let him hate the baby.
9. It’s okay not to share.
10. Let her hog that toy all day.
11. We’re not all friends here.
12. You can’t play – A-ok.
13. Hang up a No Girls sign.
14. Take rejection in stride.
15. Ban chairs, not tag.
16. Give kids power.
17. Only punch friends.
18. Bombs, guns, and bad guys allowed.
19. Boys can wear tutus.
20. Pictures don’t have to be pretty.
21. Paint off the paper.
22. Stop saying good job.
23. Kids don’t have to say sorry.
24. Let your kid swear.
25. Love your kid’s lies.
26. Sex ed starts in preschool.
27. Be buddies with dead birds.
28. Make some enemies at the playground.
29. Goof up.
Are there some on the list which resonate more with you? I’d love to hear so I can narrow down this list rather than writing 29 more blog posts on this topic: ) On a side note, I am excited to be 22 days into my 30 day blogging love affair. So many lessons have come up over the past 3 weeks which are creating something else in the making…